Release Date: January 23rd 2020
Reviewed by: Jonathan Andre
- Finding My Way Back
Signed to the then active Maxx Recordings that housed other new artists (at the time) 3for3 and Riley Clemmons (who is currently now on Capitol CMG and is blowing up with popularity with her song ‘Broken Prayers’), Kolby Koloff, the youngest daughter of now retired professional wrestler Nikita Koloff and his second wife Victoria, released her first EP titled Grow in 2015, that spawned the title track as a radio single. While Kolby has been in the spotlight since a young age (her family were the subject of a reality TV programme in the U.S. titled Preacher’s Daughters), she is thereby no stranger to being in front of the media. Her EP succeeded to an extent a few years ago, and while at the moment MAXX Recordings is no more, Kolby continues to pursue music and in particular Christian music as her craft, and since her relatively successful EP (her song ‘Grow’ peaked at #34 on the Billboard Christian Songs Charts of that particular year, for quite some time too!), she released another 2 further popular songs- ‘No Room’ that debuted in 2016, and ‘Save Yourself’, that released a few months ago. ‘Save Yourself’ was especially impactful in my own life over the last few years, as I am reminded, often on a daily basis, that there is a need to continuously be humble enough to admit that we can’t save ourselves on our own- that the worry, calamity, uncertainty and restlessness that can be deep within us should rather be given over to God, so He can take control of situations we may not have a grip and handle over. Now as we enter in 2020, Kolby has yet another new song to impart to us listeners, this time, a new track called ‘Finding My Way Back’.
‘…if everything you had today was taken away tomorrow (and I mean everything) would you still worship God? Would you still go to Him with thanksgiving and praise? Or is your praise and thankfulness to God dependent upon what you do or do not have? Is it dependent upon what He does or doesn’t give you? This is what I’ve been wrestling with this season of life. I’ve had to ask myself these questions. If you feel a hesitancy in your heart to worship God through difficult times (which is where I’ve found myself until recently), I challenge you to check if you have the right view of God. My Bible says that ALL the ways of the Lord are good, just, and right. It says who are we to question what He is doing, when we are to trust that ALL things work together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. (Rom. 8:28). It says that prosperity AND calamity come from the Lord (Ecc. 7:13) but that we can rest in His sovereignty over every circumstance. Our praise should never be determined by our circumstance. We’re called to praise through our circumstance. To worship through our hardships. To trust that He is a good Father who knows more than we ever could, and will bring everything to fruition in His timing, for His glory. It’s difficult to wrap my head around, and I’m sure it is for you too. But I’ve been asking Him to show me how. God, how do I praise through this? How do I worship through that? Truthfully, the more I ask the more He reveals. “Those who search for me with all of their heart will find me.” (Jer. 29:13). Ask Him to show you how. Ask Him to give you a heart of gratitude and praise that doesn’t waiver when things go wrong. He is a comforter, a teacher, our good Shepherd. Trust in His goodness and His plans…’
It is in this quote above (that was recently posted on her Instagram) that I believe is the crux of what this new song is about- if and when things are taken away from us (because in life, things will be taken away)- where do we find our hope, joy, peace, and who do we always go back to when things are looking bleak and despondant? Or as Kolby herself puts in in the quote above, will we still praise God and give thanks to Him when everything is taken away? I know I should, because I know who He is and who I am in light of who He is, but if that situation actually happened to me, I don’t know if I will praise God initially. I’d cry, pray, bargain, I’d be in shock, I don’t know. But one thing I do know- this song, underneath all the boppy-ness and pop nature, lies a message and theme ever-needed in such a society as this. We all have to find our way back, as an individual, as a collective people, even as a nation, as we understand that where we are now may not be where we want to be. We all have to go back to our roots, to what we know to be true regardless of where we are, and the circumstances we’re in. Though not exactly ‘Christian’ in nature, Kolby’s new track nevertheless does evoke thoughts and emotions that are very much needed, as Christians. Going back to the basics means going back to Christ, and thus, it is when we realise that everything else in our lives is in fact a gift as a result of what Christ has done for us, then we may not cling onto the things as much if they are to be taken away from us at some point in the future. A song that is poppy and boppy as well as challenging, well done Kolby for such a thought-provoking song. Looking forward to a new EP or even a full length album, whenever that may arise!
RIYL: Ellie Holcomb, TRALA, Moriah Peters, Citizen Way, UNITED